32 Week Bump Date

How far along? 32 weeks 6 Days (12/25/13)

Total weight gain: I have gained a total of 16.4 lbs. 

Maternity clothes? Still rocking my yoga pants and maternity everything!! 

Stretch marks? Just the same ol' ones!!

Sleep: I have been sleeping great. I get up to use the ladies room once, and then I usually have trouble falling back to sleep. Once I'm out, I'm OUT!! 

Best moment this week: Feeling Caleb move and kick around! I also have to say spending Christmas Eve with Ryan for our 2nd Christmas and going to Church as one of our new traditions. It was great feeling Caleb move and kick around when they were singing. 

Miss Anything? Not really! 

Movement: Oh Yeah Tons!!!  

Food cravings: Sweets, Sweets, and More Sweets!! 

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing so far this week. 

Gender: IT'S A BOY!!

Labor Signs:  No actual labor signs, but my body is definitely getting prepared. I have had some Braxton hicks every now and then. 

Symptoms: My back has been killing me! Standing/sitting is just not comfortable anymore. Standing at work or walking has me in pain; especially my lower right hand side where I have that pinched nerve every now and then. 

 Belly Button in or out?  It's officially an outtie

 Engagement Ring on or off?  It's still on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: I have been extremely happy!! 

Looking forward to:

Spending Christmas Day with Ryan and his family and of course turning 33 weeks the day after Christmas . It's so exciting starting new traditions with Ryan this year, and being able to continue these traditions we start with Caleb. 

Thoughts: 

5 More Weeks Till we Meet Caleb!! I found out I had gestational diabetes last week so on Thursday I will be meeting with a dietician. I will have to start checking my blood sugar as well as monitoring what I eat. I am so excited that he will be here in 5 more weeks. I am also nervous at the same time. It's getting closer to 34 weeks and my fear is starting to take over again. I know that I will be monitored 2 times a week and can easily go to the hospital for some peace of mind. I just hope and pray for Caleb each and everyday that he arrives healthy. I am also very glad my high risk doctor wanted me to take my glucose test for the 3rd time, because if I hadn't I could have put Caleb at risk without knowing my blood sugar what getting high. 

31 Week Bump Date

How far along? 31 weeks 6 Days (12/18/13)

Total weight gain: I have gained a total of 15 lbs. 

Maternity clothes? Still rocking my yoga pants and maternity everything!! 

Stretch marks? Just the same ol' ones!!

Sleep: My back is still hurting, but I have been such a light sleeper these days. 

Best moment this week: Seeing how big my tummy has grown in the last few weeks. It is crazy to see the changes each and everyday. 

Miss Anything? Not really! 

Movement: Oh Yeah Tons!!!  

Food cravings:  Nothing this week surprisingly. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nausea has been gone this week and I'm very happy for that. 

Gender: IT'S A BOY!!

Labor Signs:  Braxton Hicks every now and then, but no actual labor signs. 

Symptoms: My back has been killing me! Standing/sitting is just not comfortable anymore. Standing at work or walking has me in pain; especially my lower right hand side where I have that pinched nerve every now and then. 

 Belly Button in or out?  It's officially an outtie

 Engagement Ring on or off?  It's still on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: I have been extremely happy!! 

Looking forward to:

Looking forward to getting more things for Caleb as well as getting my hospital bag items ready and all put together. I have all these things on my mind that we still need and I feel like we are not as prepared for Caleb as we should be, but I'm sure everything will fall into place soon. 

Thoughts: 

6 weeks till we meet our baby boy!! It's becoming so surreal that he will be here in 6 weeks. Ryan and I are both so excited and well as our family. We can't wait to hold this little guy in our arms and hear him cry for the first time. He is our little miracle, and we can't wait till he arrives. 

30 Week Bump Date

Excuse this screen shot, we accidentally deleted the pictures before uploading them to the computer so this is all I have :( 

How far along? 30 weeks 6 days (12/11/13)

Total weight gain: I have gained a total of 20 lbs. 

Maternity clothes? Still rocking my yoga pants and maternity everything!! 

Stretch marks? Just the same ol' ones!!

Sleep: Having some trouble sleeping. I have been such a light sleeper these days its unreal.  

Best moment this week: Turning 30 Weeks and being in San Antonio to visit my great-grandma and visiting with her and letting her see my baby bump. Caleb was so active and moving around and being home knowing how close he is to arriving just made it that much more special. 

Miss Anything? Not really! 

Movement: Oh Yeah Tons!!!  

Food cravings: Yams and stuffing

Anything making you queasy or sick: I think nausea is coming back!! Oh no!! 

Gender: IT'S A BOY!!

Labor Signs:  No labor signs for a long while

Symptoms: Same lower back pain; I have also had a lot of pressure and apparently this is normal. I seriously feel like something is going to bust. lol

 Belly Button in or out?  It's officially an outtie for sure!! 

 Engagement Ring on or off?  It's still on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: I have been extremely happy!! 

Looking forward to:

Shopping some more for Caleb and prepping for his arrival, packing our hospital bag and finding him an outfit to come home in. 

Thoughts: 

 7 weeks till we meet our baby boy!! I have to retake my glucose test tomorrow (Thursday) so we will see how those results turn out. I am getting so excited, and nervous at the same time. I still have my fears, but I am trying to put those behind me and this very positive. 

Biggest Fear

As I am currently typing this, I am 30 weeks 3 days pregnant with our Rainbow baby Caleb. As the weeks get closer and closer to 37, I have a fear that I don't want to relive. It haunts me each and everyday, but I do not let it take over my pregnancy. I have celebrated each and everyday I have Caleb growing inside me and I thank God each and everyday for that. 

My fear of approaching 34 weeks and going through another loss kills me as we draw near to 34 weeks. I went into the hospital when I was pregnant with Isabella at 34 weeks 3 days and I'm terrified of 34 weeks. It brings anxiety, worry, and this terrible fear that I do not want to replay again. I bring it up each and every time to my OBGYN, and she is always reassuring me that we will be taken care of and monitored each week. She always tells me I can go to the hospital if I have any concerns, but that does not seem to me enough for me mentally sometimes. I'm terrified to death and I just want to get past the 34 week mark, but of course anything could happen after that as well. I just want to embrace and celebrate each and everyday left of my pregnancy without fear, but after loosing Isabella it is hard to have that mindset sometimes. 

I am very thankful that I have a very wonderful, supportive fiancé. Ryan has been my rock through this whole pregnancy. We have had some pregnancy scares with Caleb and I try to stay calm and when I hear worry in his voice it brings my heart to my knees knowing that he feels the same fears but does not share them with me. I have to hear his fears through his voice or his facial expressions. We are both scared,but he doesn't show it. He tries to stay strong for me.  Ryan has helped me through my darkest days and he continues to each and everyday. I am so blessed and thankful for him each and everyday. 

I know we can not let this fear take over us. After experiencing a loss, you tend to take every precaution and worry about each and every little thing in your pregnancy. It is not a bad thing to do, but any parent that has experienced a loss tends to think this way as well. We tend to let the fear take over us at times but have to remind ourself that everything will be fine and trust in your body.

29 Week Bump Date

Sorry this is just going up, it's been a very VERY busy week. Read below for details. 

How far along? 29 weeks 4 Days

Total weight gain: I have gained a total of 17 lbs. 

Maternity clothes? Still rocking my yoga pants and maternity everything!! 

Stretch marks? Just the same ol' ones!!

Sleep: My back is starting to hurt again, so lately the left side has been the most comfortable position. I wake up in the middle of the night to use the ladies room 1-2 times a night and have been having some trouble falling back to sleep this week. 

Best moment this week: I turned 29 weeks on Thanksgiving Day! It was so amazing to share Caleb moving and kicking around with Ryan's family. Of course when they went to feel Caleb he stopped moving but him just growing and seeing my tummy grow has been the best moment this week. 

Miss Anything? Not really! 

Movement: Oh Yeah Tons!!!  

Food cravings: Hamburgers; red beans and rice with biscuits from Popeye's 

Anything making you queasy or sick: I think nausea is coming back!! Oh no!! 

Gender: IT'S A BOY!!

Labor Signs:  No labor signs for a long while

Symptoms: My back has been killing me! Standing/sitting is just not comfortable anymore. Standing at work or walking has me in pain; especially my lower right hand side where I have that pinched nerve every now and then. 

 Belly Button in or out?  It's officially an outtie

 Engagement Ring on or off?  It's still on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: I have been extremely happy!! 

Looking forward to:

Buying everything we need for Caleb's arrival as well as my hospital bag soon. We haven't had a baby shower, so we will be purchasing the main things we need to bring him home for the first few weeks and then we will purchase more as we go.  I'm also looking forward to seeing him again when we go back to the doctors at 32 weeks with MFM doctor.

Thoughts: 

 8 weeks till we meet our baby boy!! I'm counting down the days till we meet our baby boy.I have to retake my glucose test this week when I turn 30 weeks since our last visit to the MFM he noticed my amniotic fluid was "normal but on the high side". I have been so worried and praying for the best. I hope we get some good results on our 32 week appointment with the MFM. These next couple of weeks are going to be busy with doctors appointments. 

In Other News:

It has been a crazy week! We drove up to San Antonio when I was 29 weeks 6 days to go pick up our new addition to the family. Ryan wanted to get a boxer puppy, so we drove up there for the night and came back Thursday so when I turned 30 weeks we were suppose to record but a puppy sure is prepping us for Caleb. We have been up every night taking turns with him and we didn't record our 29 week Bump Date. I will do a 29/30 week bump date though. 

28 Week Bump Date

How far along? 28 weeks 6 Days

Total weight gain: I have gained a total of 15 lbs. 

Maternity clothes? Still rocking my yoga pants and maternity everything!! 

Stretch marks? Just the same ol' ones!!

Sleep: Sleep has been going great! Their are some nights I have trouble going to sleep, but once I'm out I don't wake up till about 2:30am and then again around 4:30am to use the ladies room. I fall back to sleep fairly quickly though. 

Best moment this week: Seeing him at our 28 week appointment playing with his hands and feet close to his mouth, and yawing. It was truly one of the best feelings seeing him do all this inside my tummy. 

Miss Anything? Not really! 

Movement: Oh Yeah Tons!!!  

Food cravings: None this week!! 

Anything making you queasy or sick: I think nausea is coming back!! Oh no!! 

Gender: IT'S A BOY!!

Labor Signs:  No labor signs for a long while

Symptoms: Still getting some back pain on my bottom right side of my back. I still have some nasal congestion. I also have a mild cough with some congestion, so I think it is all allergies unfortunately. 

 Belly Button in or out?  It's officially an outtie

 Engagement Ring on or off?  It's still on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: I have been extremely happy!! 

Looking forward to:

Buying everything we need for Caleb's arrival as well as my hospital bag soon. We haven't had a baby shower, so we will be purchasing the main things we need to bring him home for the first few weeks and then we will purchase more as we go.  I'm also looking forward to seeing him again when we go back to the doctors at 32 weeks with MFM doctor.

Thoughts: 

 9 weeks till we meet our baby boy!! I'm counting down the days till we meet our baby boy. It is all becoming surreal. Seeing him at our appointment with his feet and hands in his mouth just made everything become real. He will be here before we know it and I can't wait to hold him and kiss him. He is our little blessing, and we are so excited for his arrival. We continue to pray each and everyday for a safe arrival of our sweet baby boy. His kicks and constant movement always reassures me that he is doing great in his home right now. 

In case you missed my 28 Week video you can check it out Here: