An Auntie's Journey Through Grieving Part I

I had mentioned starting a new blog a while back, and when I mentioned it to my sister I asked if she would be interested in sharing her thoughts and experience with the grieving process. She was 100% on board with this idea. 

Today I bring you our first edition of An Auntie's Journey Through Grieving. 

Bianca will share her thoughts, experience from the time she found out about everything up until the present. I'm so excited to have her share her words.

Coping with loss is a bit different for me. When I got that call at 8:00 in the morning, I felt as if I lost a figment of life. As much as I was hurt, Charles told me "What if there's a glitch?" "What if Rochelle is just under stress?" "I'm sure the baby is ok!" As much as I wanted to believe him, I could not. Then our mom calls me,   hysterical...."She's gone!!" "What do you do when your sister is hurt?" "What do you do when innocence is taken?" "How do you deal with it?" I tend to keep it inside and be there for my loved ones, and I did. Rochelle wanted me to go Houston that day, but I could not find it in me to be strong, and it hurt. The one time my sister needed me, I could not be there. I did not want to accept the fact that my god daughter was gone. The face time calls were replaying in my head. Rochelle and I would face time and I would talk to Bella and Rochelle. While talking to her, Rochelle said she would kick. That was the best feeling! My sister is my best friend and then to be able to connect with Isabella was the best. Here we are four months later, with Rochelle and Ryan expecting again. When she told me, the feelings were bitter-sweet. I was happy for them; not only are they getting their second chance, but so am I. My only concern was I do not want to relive that phone call, or the feeling. I just want to know she and my god child are in good hands and will be monitored more carefully. In my planner I would jot done Rochelle's cravings, mood and write a little love note for Bella. 

Bianca will be sharing her Love Note to Bella tomorrow!! So come back and check it out!